Sovereign Lord,
When clouds of darkness, atheism, and
unbelief
come to me,
I see thy purpose of
love
in withdrawing the Spirit that I
might prize
him more,
in chastening me for my
confidence in
past successes, that
my wound of secret
godlessness
might be cured.
Help me to humble
myself before thee
by seeing the vanity of honour
as a conceit of
men’s minds,
as standing between
me and thee;
by seeing that thy will must
alone be done,
as much in denying as
in giving
spiritual
enjoyments;
by seeing that my heart is
nothing but evil,
mind, mouth, life
void of thee;
by seeing that sin and Satan are
allowed power
in me that I might
know my sin, be humbled,
and gain
strength thereby;
by seeing that unbelief shuts
thee from me,
so that I sense not
thy majesty, power, mercy,
or love.
Then possess me, for
thou only art good
and worthy.
Thou dost not play
in convincing me of sin,
Satan did not play
in tempting me to it,
I do not play when I
sink in deep mire,
for sin is no game, no toy, no
bauble;
Let me never forget
that the heinousness of sin lies
not so much in the nature of the
sin committed,
as in the greatness of the Person
sinned against.
When I am afraid of
evils to come, comfort me,
by showing me
that in myself I am a dying,
condemned wretch,
but that in Christ I am
reconciled, made alive,
and satisfied;
that I am feeble and unable to do
any good,
but that in him I can do all
things;
that what I now have in Christ is
mine in part,
but shortly I shall have it
perfectly in heaven.