FACING DARK DAYS
Many of us perhaps have little idea what it must be like to be
in the depths of despair.
by Ian Hamilton
Sometimes Christians fall into the depths of despair. An extreme example would
be Jeremiah, God's faithful prophet. We can hardly imagine the inner anguish
that caused him to cry out, "Cursed be the day I was born... why
did I ever come out of the womb to see trouble and sorrow and to end my
days in shame?" He didn't end his days in shame, but at a particularly
dark time in his life he was sure that he would. Many of us perhaps have
little idea what it must be like to be in the depths of despair. It may
be that temperamentally we are somewhat immune from such experiences,
or are strangers to the spiritual battles that some of God's choicest
servants are called to fight. What cannot be denied, is that even the
finest of Christians are exposed by their gracious and kindly Father to
the darkest of experiences. Most remarkably, it was the Holy spirit who
led our Lord Jesus into the desert, where for forty days he was tempted
by the devil.
Why is this? Why does our heavenly Father purpose such dark valleys for
some of his dearly loved children? No doubt much could be said, but one
thing above all needs to be said: He does so because he loves his children
and seeks their present and eternal good. For our Lord Jesus Christ, it
was his exposure to the assaults of the evil one that prepared him for
the ministry and mission that lay before him. The first Adam failed and
fell with all the advantages of God's garden to sustain him; the last
Adam triumphed and prevailed in a desert, with nothing but his naked trust
in his Father to sustain him: "Man does not live by bread alone,
but on every word that comes from the mouth of God."
Conformity to the Lord Jesus Christ will necessarily mean that we enter
into the pattern of life that made him the Man he became -"he learned
obedience from what he suffered and, once made perfect, he became the
source of eternal salvation for all who obey him." The dark valleys
are no less part of our heavenly Father's gracious purpose for his children,
than the shining mountain tops. We would, of course, rather always be
on the mountain top, but there are lessons and truths we can only learn
in our loving Father's graciously prepared dark valleys. It is neither
callousness nor indifference that causes him to lead us into the dark
valleys; it is rather his unshakeable resolve to conform us to the likeness
of his Son.
I am more than conscious that this is only too easy to say. Some of you
reading this may even now be in the depths and feel out of your depth.
Consider, therefore, what our Lord Jesus did in his times of great need
(and he had them):
First, he quoted the Word of God to the enemy who tracked him into the
desert place. Our Saviour repelled the wicked suggestions and temptations
of the devil by the truth of Holy Scripture. He had hidden God's word
in his heart that he might not sin against him. This is what we all must
learn to do. Gather up the precious promises of God's word, not least
this, "the blood of Jesus Christ, God's Son, cleanses us from every
sin," and suck the goodness out of them.
Secondly, he cried out to his Father. In the Garden and on the Cross,
our Lord Jesus cried out to the One who loved him, to whom he was precious
beyond all words. This is what the Psalmist did when he was in the depths,
"Out of the depths I cry to you O Lord (God of covenant faithfulness)."
Perhaps the hardest thing to do when you are in the depths is to resist
the pressure to look in and find something inside you to comfort you:
My love for him is not dead; I still trust him; I feel some sorrow for
my sin. It is good that these are there, but what if tomorrow you feel
they are not there? John Newton was profoundly right when he wrote:
"When Satan tempts me to despair,
And tells me of the guilt within;
Upwards I look and see him there,
Who put an end to all my sin."
Help and hope are not found within, but without, in the finished work
and unchanging love of our Great High Priest Jesus Christ - who is afflicted
in all our afflictions.
Be of good cheer, dear fellow believer. The dark valleys will not last
forever. One day they will all be swallowed up in the mountain-top glory
of God's nearer presence. Then all our blues will be banished into eternal
oblivion. He who promised is faithful.
Ian Hamilton